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A Living Epistle

A Living Epistle

Jesus said, “Mary has discovered the one thing most important by choosing to sit at My feet. She is undistracted, and I won’t take this privilege from her.”  Luke 10:42 TPT

I count it my greatest privilege to sit at Jesus’ feet undistracted. I hunger and thirst to know Him more intimately. I have a desire and an ache deep inside me for the deep of the heart of God. I  desire Him above all else.

One morning as I was praying and watching the sunrise come over the mountains where I live, spilling its color over the waters of Klamath Lake. As the light inched its way into the day, so did my desire for the King of kings. A great ache formed from my deep longing for Him and Him alone. A burning hunger to know the movements of His holy breath. While I sat in the silence of His presence, I saw a picture of Jesus walking into the Temple and opening the Scroll to Isaiah 61 (Luke 4:16-21).  As this image of Jesus unfolded, I heard Him reading about Himself, and my spirit leaped within me. Jesus said, “Today, this Scripture has been fulfilled in your hearing.” I asked the Lord out of deep desire, “Would You please walk into my temple and read Yourself through me?” Then, I saw the Lord walk into my temple, open the Scripture, and read  Himself through me!  My desire is to be a living epistle from the heart of God and that people would see me and read Jesus. I never want to lose this wonder of Him. Jesus is my story, my desire, and I desire that when people see me, they are reading Him.

Years ago, I asked Jesus, “Will You come and sit next to me and read Your love letter to me?” WOW! Did He ever take me up on that invitation, and I am so grateful He did! Whenever we ask Him to read His heart to us, we know that He will. He will come and write His heartbeat onto ours and leave a passionate, burning heart for Him, the revealer of all love and truth. When Jesus opens His Scriptures within our hearts, it becomes revelation and not religion

The Scriptures speak of our Jesus and His choice to become flesh and dwell among us. How He literally dwells on the inside of us. He wants our full gaze. He says, “Eyes on Me with singleness of heart. Wherever you open the Scripture, it speaks of Me. Look ahead; I am doing a new thing.” Let Jesus open His Word to you and read Himself to and through your temple.  His Word is living, and we meet the Lord every time we read Him, the Word that became flesh. Ask for understanding. May we long to gain His understanding so that our hearts burn within us as we gaze at Jesus, an audience of one. 

Blessings,

Lynda Renne

Sanctioned Love

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What is Beauty?

When I was at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, I had the opportunity to work with some amazingly anointed women on a book project. The class was called Kingdom Creativity, and the book was called Beauty.  It is a collection of photography and poetry that celebrates the beauty God has placed all around and inside us.  A couple of days ago, I was flipping through the pages and wanted to share a few of the poems and what inspired them. 

I had little experience writing poetry then. Many of these pieces, however, seemed to come to me through ‘supernatural download.’ The five ladies I had been partnered with for this creative project were all photographers, and I was the only writer, which seemed a little daunting at first. However, I felt the Lord gently whispering words of hope and celebration. All too often, we miss the small moments, the tiny bread-crumb trails of beauty laid out for us to see. You only have to open your eyes and appreciate what Father God has put right in front of you. 

Ring the Bells!

Throw open the windows and ring the bells!

Bondage has relinquished its powerful spell. 

No more will you keep us from flying, dancing!

The chains have been broken, completely freeing. 

Swing open the gates and let us run!

Sadness has melted in the light of the Son. 

No more will you keep us from laughing, singing!

Eyes have been opened to the joy of His coming. 

Ring the Bells came to me at the kitchen island of the house I shared with ten other girls while attending Bethel. (You may be slack-jawed right now at the thought of eleven women sharing a five-bedroom house, but it was one of the best experiences of my life sharing the day-to-day with these amazing women of God.)  This poem came from the section entitled “Joy and Freedom.” The pages were filled with smiling children, people dancing in the rain, and sunlit meadows. As I wrote this poem, I thought of what my life was like before I knew Jesus, like the dark void before God spoke life into existence. I had a vision of what it must have looked like at the tomb on the third day, with darkness covering the garden, and then to see the light bursting out from behind the stone as it was rolled away and our Savior was revealed. True freedom looks like surrender–surrender to a loving God who wants nothing but the best for us. It is only in His Light we can experience true freedom and joy. Sadness and despair melt in the Light of the Son. The verse that kept playing over and over in my mind as I wrote this poem was Revelation 7:17

For the Lamb at the center of the throne will be their Shepherd; ‘He will lead them to springs of living water.’ ‘And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.’ 

This is a promise for each of us who call Jesus Lord and Friend. A lot of injustice goes on in this world, but thankfully, we have His Light inside us. We are called to not only live in the freedom that He paid for on the cross but to spread the Good News of that freedom to others. 

The next section of the book was entitled Hidden Beauty. In it were close-up photos featuring a rusty old car, a wagon wheel, and a chipped teapot atop a stack of dusty books, to name just a few. There is hidden beauty in things that are old or abandoned, yet often it is a matter of perspective. Sometimes it can be difficult to see the good in different situations of our lives, but I was reminded that God can turn even the worst of these circumstances for His good. 

Hidden 

Slow down. 

Look around. 

The treasure is within your grasp–

Disguised. 

Pass through the door into a world

Waiting just below the surface. 

Full of color and culture and delight–

Unseen. 

A flash of light around the corner. 

A distant laugh carried in the wind, 

Embedded in mystery and suspense–

Concealed. 

The beauty is in the journey, 

The splendor in perspective. 

Who will find the extraordinary–

Hidden. 

I pray that if you feel like you are walking through an impossible situation, God will give you His eyes to see and give you a perspective shift. It doesn’t mean that things will magically get better or turn out the way you want. Rest assured, He is with you through it all. “Lord, give us eyes to see and ears to hear Your voice, even when we cannot see or understand the why.” 

This last poem I want to share came from the section we called Architecture. I have always been fascinated by architecture and ruins from ancient cultures. The pages of this section were filled with photos of beautiful buildings–some old, some new. As I was writing this poem, I was thinking of all the people who have gone before; the heritage the children of Israel left us; and how we, as grafted-in children of God, get to be a part of that. I thought of the Heroes of the Faith like Amy Semple-McPherson, Billy Graham, and so many other evangelists, teachers, apostles, missionaries, and just ‘regular Joes’ like myself that have left a beautiful legacy.

 I thought of my Grandma Jean, who was a first-generation Christian in her family. She changed the course of our entire family because of her choice to follow Christ. I think of my Grandpa Tim and Grandma Eula, who loved Jesus and prayed for my siblings and me. She taught me that worship is not just about a song but about your heart. I think of my parents and all the countless hours they spent praying and interceding for me. I am so incredibly thankful for their examples. I wanted to pay tribute to the legacy I get to enjoy because of other people’s sacrifices, both those I have had the pleasure of knowing throughout my life and those who have impacted my life whom I have yet to meet. Their ceiling became my floor, and someday, I will meet them on the other side of eternity. 

These Walls Could Tell You Stories 

These walls could tell you stories

You would not believe

Of Kings and Queens of long ago–

The wisdom that they leave. 

These towers could show you views

You have never seen, 

Of cobbles streets and rooftops–

In golden light they gleam. 

These ruins could tell you histories

You would never know, 

Of people who have gone before–

So we may learn and grow. 

People come and people go

But these monuments remain,

Showing us where we have been

And the future we could claim. 

To me, this section of the book was really about honoring those who have gone before and remembering that we are not put on this earth for our own selfish pleasures. If we are wise, we will build our lives on the Rock (Jesus), as it talks about in Matthew 7. We build our lives on Jesus, not only for ourselves but for the generations that will follow. I want to build a legacy that my children and my children’s children can look back on and think, “Wow! She walked with Jesus.” 

Exodus 20:1-6

And God spoke all these words, saying, “I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery. You shall have no other gods before Me. You shall not make for yourself a carved image or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth. You shall not bow down to them or serve them, for I the LORD your God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generation of those who hate Me, but showing steadfast love to the thousandth generation of those who love Me and keep My commandments. 

That is the kind of legacy I want to build, one that will send an impact trickling down throughout the generations. 

Blessings,

Nicole Boyd
Poetry Copyright – Nicole (Davenport) Boyd, 2011.

Samctioned Love

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He Saw The Voice!

A few weeks ago, I was sitting in my prayer chair praying in the Spirit. The Lord prompted me to stop and write down the revelation He was speaking and showing me at that moment. He asked me to write down what I was seeing and feeling in real-time.

I quickly got my journal. He was showing me panoramic pictures in my mind. Here is what He showed me:

I saw John the Revelator on the Island of Patmos. He was talking to Jesus in prayer, in a distant kind of way–like how we speak to the air when someone is gone, and we really miss them.

Jesus was just beyond John’s reach. Not there with him like he used to be. He had gone to be with His Father in Glory, and John was alone with his thoughts and pain on a deserted island.

He was thinking about his best Friend, Savior, and Lord. He was aching for Jesus’ presence. I heard John say, “I just want to see You. I want to see You in Your glory. I miss You, my best friend.”

All of a sudden, I saw Jesus appear as in Revelation 1:10-16 (AMPC),

I was in the Spirit [rapt in His power] on the Lord’s Day, and I heard behind me a great voice like the calling of a war trumpet, saying, I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last…………Then I (John) turned to see [whose was] the voice that was speaking to me, and on turning, I saw seven golden lampstands, and in the midst of the lampstands [One] like a Son of Man, clothed with a robe which reached to His feet and with a girdle of gold about His breast. His head and His hair were white like white wool, [as white] as snow, and His eyes [flashed] like a flame of fire. His feet glowed like burnished (bright) bronze as it is refined in a furnace, and His voice was like the sound of many waters. In His right hand, He held seven stars, and from His mouth, there came forth a sharp two-edged sword, and His face was like the sun shining in full power at midday.

In these verses, Jesus is described as fully Man and fully God–in His FULL GLORY! 

God also highlighted, in the above Scripture, that John was in the Spirit. When he heard a loud Voice like a trumpet, he turned and Saw the Lord. John, SAW THE VOICE!
 The Voice of God is the Face of Jesus. Through God’s Voice, we see the person of Jesus!
God created EVERYTHING with His Voice. Genesis 1:1-3 says, “In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.God said, “Let there be light.”                                               
 You see, the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit were all together in the beginning. 
  • The Father is the Voice,
  • Jesus is the Word of that Voice. 
  • Then Jesus became flesh and dwelt among us as the Light of God. 
  • The Holy Spirit brought it all forth into physical form by God’s Spirit.

God created Himself in the flesh, in the Person of Jesus, the Son of God, so that we could   behold His face-God’s face-through His Son. God’s Voice is His face and John saw that Voice!                                              

I then saw Jesus talking to John and showing him His glory. John saw Jesus fully alive and in His majesty. He saw the majesty of the Sound and Voice of God.

John saw that Sound! 

In my vision, Jesus sat with John, man to man, friend to friend, and heart to heart, both excited to see and hear one another.

I then saw Jesus and the hosts of heaven show John the things that were and are to come. I heard Jesus say to John, “Even in the destruction, there is My Glory and My Voice…it’s in the Trumpet…It is My Voice, and My Voice is a Sound. My Voice is the sound of love with mercy and justice.”

Love is the Sound from Genesis 1 all the way to Revelation 22. In the beginning of time, God said… and at the end of time, the Bride and the Spirit say, “Said and say are the Sound of My love. Love is a Sound. Behold the Man! Behold your everlasting God!

My vision of that beautiful scene with John and Jesus ended, but I have deeply contemplated it since.

May the Sound of His Voice permeate your being, and may you behold the Man and behold the Face of God. May you behold the Face of Jesus! May you see the Voice!

 

Maranatha!

Joy Pharo

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Mercy is Compassion in Action

Mercy is Compassion in Action

I have been thinking about compassion lately and the lack thereof.  I see compassion fatigue everywhere I look!  The busyness of life and our “to-do lists” can exhaust all of our human resources.  Today I want you to think of the two most important commandments,  “Love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind, and love your neighbor as yourself”  Luke 10:27. If we are to give out of what we have, yet we are depleted of the very thing we need to have, how are we to do what we are commanded to do?  And that is to love.

When Jesus walked on the Earth in the flesh, He was tested and questioned a lot by experts of the law of Moses, which God had given.   He walked in holiness and was Love itself.  He did all He saw the Father do and said all He heard the Father say.  It amazes me how often He was tested and ridiculed by those who adhered to the Law of Moses. 

One day, an expert of the religious law asked Jesus, “What should I do to inherit eternal life?” 

Jesus answered him, saying, “What does the law of Moses say to do? And how do you read it?”

The man answered, “You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind, and love your neighbor as yourself.”

“Right!” Jesus said, “do this, and you will live!”      

So the man wanting to justify his actions, asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?”

I find it interesting that the man wanted to justify his actions.  What actions?  He must have been thinking of people he considered his neighbors and those he did not.  Probably even thinking of some he had shunned.  I do not think we need to justify any of our actions if we truly walk in love because I believe that we do not think more highly of ourselves when we are walking in love.  

This is where I want you all to be, right here—thoughts about Law or Love, Compassion or the lack thereof.

Jesus answered the expert in the law of Moses with a story.   It was about a “Good Samaritan.”  Knowing how this man already felt about Samaritans.  They were an unclean breed.  They have mixed relations.  I’m sure you know the story, but let’s refresh our memory. Read Luke 10:25-37

Here we have a Jewish man who had been traveling from Jerusalem to Jericho and was jumped by some robbers.  They did not just rob him; they beat him up terribly within an inch of his life.  Then they left him lying there to die.

The first person to pass him on the road was a priest, which today could be anyone who teaches the Word of God, such as a pastor or a teacher.   As he  walks up to this Jewish man lying on the ground, who had been beaten within an inch of his life, what does the Priest do? He crosses the road to the other side.  Why?  Because the Law of Moses forbid him to touch anything unclean, and if he touched him, then he would not be able to do what he was supposed to do that day.  You know that “to-do list!”  

Next, we see a Levite who comes up to the Jewish man laying the road.  He would or could be anyone who serves in the church.  Co-leaders in the church, deacons, etc.  What does he do?  Surely he is not as busy as the Pastor; surely, he could get a little dirty to help this man? Nope, he, too, crosses the street because he does not want to become unclean; otherwise, he would be unable to do all he had to do that day–you know, his “to-do list.” 

Sadly, I cannot tell you how many ways this scenario is repeated to this day, but it is. 

Finally,  Jesus says, and I quote,  “Then a despised Samaritan came along, and when he saw the man, he felt compassion for him. Going over to him, the Samaritan soothed his wounds with olive oil and wine and bandaged them. Then he put the man on his own donkey and took him to an inn, where he took care of him. The next day he handed the innkeeper two silver coins,  telling him, ‘Take care of this man. If his bill runs higher than this, I’ll pay you the next time I’m here.’

Wow, interesting.  Not only did it cost him time, but it also cost him money.  The Samaritan probably had a “to-do list” that day too.   I’m sure of it.  But something was different about him.  I am not sure he felt he was going to be unclean.  Why? Because he was already considered unclean–by the Jewish people. 

Jesus asked, “Now, which of these three would you say was a neighbor to the man who was attacked by bandits?” 

The religious expert on the law of Moses replied, “The one who showed him mercy.”

 “Yes”, Jesus answered, “now go and do the same.”

It’s interesting to me that Jesus used a Samaritan man in His story to help a Jewish man who was hurt.  Samaritans were hated by the Jews because of their mixed ethnicity and their disregard for Jewish beliefs.  I always say, “Jesus does and says everything on purpose, with a purpose.”  When Jesus speaks, we should pause and listen intently.  So what was different about the Samaritan and the Priest and Levite?  What was the key ingredient?………………

It was compassion.

AND                            

Without compassion, we would not show mercy, 

AND

Mercy is love in action!

I believe most would have expected the Priest or the Levite to help.  I mean, it was their own people lying on the ground.  Not only that, they were loving people, right?  After all, it is what the law of Moses commanded them to do,  and they followed the law to the T.  I do not want to sound condescending, but I do want it to cause us to ponder as to why they did not stop.  What prevented them from feeling compassion for a fellow Jew?   

“Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are My disciples. -John 13:35

In Compassion, Mercy and Love,

Jen Meyers

Sanctioned Love

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Resilience

RESILIENCE

Resilience is not about how many times you get knocked down; it is about how many times you get back up.

It is the ability to rebuild our lives and bounce back.  

Webster defines resilience as the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties, the ability of a substance (faith) or an object to spring back into shape.  

There are many things in our lives that can cause us to be knocked down; for example, health, death, loss, family issues, jobs, finances, disappointments, setbacks, failures, and trauma.We all respond differently to any one of these stresses. Many of us respond with unhealthy coping strategies like putting up walls of self-protection or falling into despair and/or hopelessness. But how can we bounce back without responding in unhealthy ways?

I am glad you asked! By renewing our minds, as I spoke about in my last blog. We have to be able to shift our thinking; change our focus.   

Colossians 3:2–3 says to   Set your mind on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.  For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.

Philippians 4:8 tells us  Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me or seen in me, put it into practice.

So “bouncing back” is a choice, not a reaction. We can react with fear, anger, resentment, or a “religious response.” We can also skip over change by denial or by stuffing it down.  Or, we can choose to respond from a place of intimacy with the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Phil 2:13 says    For it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill His good purpose.

Zechariah 4:6   Not by might nor by power but by My Spirit says the Lord.

Psalms 119:28   Strengthen me according to Your Word. 

So you see, it is not through our own ability or self-strength that we bounce back. No, it is by choosing to shift our thinking, which is done by renewing our minds in Christ. Our minds are transformed as we get into and focus our thoughts on God’s Word, then His thoughts become our thoughts, and in His power, we are able to “bounce back” well!

Blessings,

Lynda Renne

Sanctioned Love

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You’ve Got to Give it Away!

If you’ve been set free from sin and bondage and been given an amazing gift of a new life, maybe it’s your turn to give someone else an opportunity to hear about it.

Galatians 6:1 says,

Dear brothers and sisters, if another believer is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back onto the right path. And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself.

This can be a very slippery slope for some, who might think “Oh I got this!” No you don’t! But God does. If God goes before you, then Go. Just an admonishment to those who don’t feel like they can, if He calls you to it He’ll anoint you to.

In Isaiah 61:1-3 it says,

The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor;1 he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound. 2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor, wand the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all who mourn; 3 to grant to those who mourn in Zion— to give them a beautiful headdress instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning,the garment of praise instead of a faint spirit; that they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he may be glorified.

Why? The Lord anoints us to go…

“You can’t keep it unless you give it away.”

You must give away what you have, it’s like the story of the talents. You have to share. Give and it will be given unto you, good measure pressed down and running over. All Things!

It’s Jesus’ desire that we share what we have. He doesn’t expect us to go at it alone! He’s anointed us with the Spirit of God.

Remember..

Once we, too, were foolish and disobedient. We were misled and became slaves to many lusts and pleasures. Our lives were full of evil and envy, and we hated each other. 4 But—When God our Savior revealed his kindness and love,5 he saved us, not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins, giving us a new birth and new life through the Holy Spirit.[a] 6 He generously poured out the Spirit upon us through Jesus Christ our Savior. 7 Because of his grace he made us right in his sight and gave us confidence that we will inherit eternal life. Titus 3:3-7

I believe we have to remember where we came from. Jesus modeled humility. We need to be humble.

Romans 12:3 Because of the privilege and authority[a] God has given me, I give each of you this warning: Don’t think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us

Acts 1:8 says, “But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. And you will be my witnesses, telling people about me everywhere—in Jerusalem, throughout Judea, in Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.” This power that comes from the Holy Spirit allows you to stand strong for the things of God.

There is one added scripture in this place of scripture, Jesus adds… “And recovery of sight to the Blind” Before this place, people couldn’t see. They were blind. But through Christ we see now, and through Christ in us and upon us, others can see too!

Living for God

1 Peter 4:1-5 So then, since Christ suffered physical pain, you must arm yourselves with the same attitude he had, and be ready to suffer, too. For if you have suffered physically for Christ, you have finished with sin.[a] 2 You won’t spend the rest of your lives chasing your own desires, but you will be anxious to do the will of God. 3 You have had enough in the past of the evil things that godless people enjoy—their immorality and lust, their feasting and drunkenness and wild parties, and their terrible worship of idols.

4 Of course, your former friends are surprised when you no longer plunge into the flood of wild and destructive things they do. So they slander you. 5 But remember that they will have to face God, who stands ready to judge everyone, both the living and the dead.

So my prayer for you today is to be ready to be used by God, that your eyes would be wide open for opportunities to share the gospel, that you’d allow the Holy Spirit to use you.

Blessings,

Jen Meyers

Sanctioned Love

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Ode To Contentment

ODE TO CONTENTMENT

Contentment is a slippery thing,

It can come and go so fast.

I had it here a minute ago,

But it slipped right through my grasp.

I sat down for only a moment,

Turned on Facebook for a look-see,

And contentment was gone. 

Now, where could it be?

Oh, but basically, I am content.

I mean, I like myself, you know.

But I wouldn’t mind losing,

Ten pounds or so.

Now, I really like my house,

It is just perfect for me.

Although I wouldn’t mind adding,

A room or two or three.

As far as my kids,

At one time, I wanted more.

But I am happy with two.

Did I mention I wanted four?

Oh, and I have enough money,

Although I wouldn’t mind a bit more.

Money doesn’t buy happiness. 

That’s what those little plastic cards are for!

Ok, so I keep trying to be content,

But it keeps eluding me.

So what am I doing wrong?

Watching too much Netflix on T.V.?

And what about all this peace, love, and joy stuff?

Where does that all fit in?

Do I not have those,

Because of some hidden sin?

I work and work and work so hard,

Yet contentment seems just beyond my grasp.

And when I grab a hold of it,

It never seems to last!

Or maybe it’s not contentment, 

I should be working for.

Maybe I should be working on my walk with Jesus,

And then contentment will slip in the back door.

Blessings,

Rheyma Oosterman

Sanctioned Love

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Perfect Your Love In Me

Perfect Your Love in Me

A few weeks ago, I had a bit of a health scare. I will not go into detail, but needless to say; I was freaked out. I scheduled an appointment with my doctor, but God spoke to me before I even went in. He gave me a promise to hold onto, something to keep my eyes pinned on while I waited for the results. He told me all was well. 

At that moment, I had a choice to make, am I going to live in fear, or am I going to trust God’s voice and what He told me? 

I can’t say I was perfect about trusting. There were many tears and lots of roiling in the pit of my stomach as I thought about the implications of a positive test result. So many thoughts bombarded me. “Who is going to take care of my family? I’m not ready to die; my kids are so young. I have not done everything God has called me to do yet.” 

This was a battle waged in my mind, and I had to lay it down before the Lord daily. Sometimes hourly. Sometimes by the second. 

I had a few people praying for me during that time–my husband, my parents, and my in-laws. I did not tell a lot of people what was going on. I chose to trust and lean on the people closest to me. I knew as soon as I started talking and allowing other people’s opinions to sway me from what God said, it could be rough. God already made a promise, and I was just waiting for the results to show that the physical lined up with that promise. 

During this time, I was taken to a scripture in 1 John about fear vs. love. 

Such love has no fear because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love. 

1 John 4:18

I was scared; I’m not going to lie. I prayed, “God, perfect Your love in me.” I thought I had not been perfected in love. His love drives out fear, so I asked Him to help me and drive out the fear that was trying to clamp onto my heart. 

He is faithful. Now, the point is not that I got a good result. (Everything is 100% healthy as far as this issue is concerned). However, through this circumstance, God revealed pieces of my heart that I had no idea were festering. I realized I was dealing with a lot of baggage around grief. I had not fully grieved for people I had lost in the past, and God was faithful to bring (and is continuing to bring) healing into those areas. He was right by my side through the waiting. 

I have struggled with fear my entire life. As a child, I was afraid of the dark, of talking in front of people–well, of pretty much everything. I had to battle constantly to stand in faith, championed by my parents as they taught me what that actually looked like. I still had to battle in my teenage years, and public school was a battlefield in many ways. The Lord taught me how to overcome fear, leaning on Holy Spirit’s voice and presence as I walked through those halls. 

However, over recent years, I have felt like there hasn’t been a lot of battling with fear. So why all of a sudden was it rearing its ugly head again? I believe Satan was trying to bring distraction and chaos into my heart as I was getting ready to be a part of a powerful conference that the Sanctioned Love team put on this summer called, Awakening Wonder in the Families of the Kingdom. But even the fear of a positive diagnosis was not going to keep me from doing what God had placed on my heart to paint. Yes, I could have called them and backed out, but I was not going to allow the enemy to get the upper hand. God is always faithful. I did get a good report the day before the conference started, and it was confirmed on Friday night again. 

But what would have happened if I had gotten a “bad report”? God is still faithful. I am sure most of us have heard the quote: “Sometimes God rescues us from the fire, sometimes through the fire, and sometimes in the fire.” 

What does this mean? Well, in the circumstance I faced, He delivered me from the fire. All is well, and I can continue living my life for Him with purpose and passion. It has reminded me of what is important and to keep my eyes trained on Him, like Peter walking to Jesus in the midst of the storm. 

Sometimes He delivers us through the fire, meaning we have to walk through a season of testing. A diagnosis would not have been fun, but He would have been with me, just like God was with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in the fiery furnace. He walked them through that fire and would have done the same for me. 

Sometimes, He delivers us in the fire. We walk through a diagnosis, and we have faith. We pray and receive prayer, and sometimes, we win by leaving behind our earthly bodies and being reunited with Jesus in Heaven. I’ve watched this scenario several times, which is why I think I was grieving so deeply when the thought of going through it myself was a possibility. 

The question is, do I still believe God heals? Yes! Do I still believe He wants us to walk in perfect health—mind, spirit, emotions, and body? Yes! So how do I reconcile that sometimes the physical doesn’t match up with what I believe? Sometimes this world does not make sense, but I know the One who created all things, Who is in all things. I don’t know why not every person I pray for gets healed. But, I do know that God is good. 

For in Him we live and move and have our being…

Acts 17: 28a NIV

Whether I live or die, it is for Him. And nothing can take me out of His hands. 

Was this ‘health scare’ a fun thing to walk through? No. But God is faithful. He showed me where I needed to adjust my heart and lean into His love more. He brought healing to grief I did not even realize I was still carrying. He is good–in every situation. And you can bet He will never leave us. 

“The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” 

Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV

Blessings!

Nicole Boyd

Sanctioned Love

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Don’t Be a Saul, Be a Paul

Don’t be a Saul, be a Paul!

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As I was studying for a teaching, the Lord showed me a picture of Paul when he was still Saul. I saw Saul as a villain in a Spaghetti Western (the low-budget films made in Italy during the 1960s and early 1970s.). 

Saul was an absolute villain! He hated Christians and even delighted in the stoning of them. He was the “strong-arm,” the one who ruled the town. He didn’t like “them Christians.” He was hell-bent on killing them or running them out of “his town.” He was consistently looking for a “showdown.” He was full of pride, which led him to believe that he was doing God a favor by getting rid of “all them Christians out there.” And in doing so, he was defending the God of Israel. Unfortunately, he was only defending the god of self

Pride kills destinies. Pride short-circuits timelines. Pride destroys.  

And Saul was full of it! 

Then I saw  Jesus show up like Clint Eastwood in the movie High Plains Drifter (can you hear the soundtrack in the background?) Jesus was standing on Straight Street (the road to Damascus) and looking out at the horizon. In the distance, Saul rode in on his “high horse.” All of a sudden, a light shone from Heaven. The light was so blinding that Saul fell off his high horse out of fear and astonishment. Saul could not see anyone, but he heard a voice saying, “Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me? It is hard to kick against the goads.” Acts 26:14 

Now Goads were typically made from slender pieces of timber, blunt on one end and pointed on the other. Farmers used the pointed end to urge a stubborn ox into motion. Foolishly, an ox might kick against the goad, causing injury and pain to its leg.  (Christianity.com) 

Jesus was calling Saul a stubborn ox! Jesus was the goad! 

Saul was trembling, and with stammering lips, he asked, “Who are You, Lord?” Even though he could not see Him, Saul knew he was talking to someone with authority. He was actually talking to Jesus, the Sheriff of Heaven and Earth–the Sheriff of everything! Then Jesus said to him, “I AM Jesus whom you are persecuting.”

Saul was shaking in his sandals now. He was terrified! He asked the Lord, “Lord, what do you want me to do?” It was then that Jesus gave him his first assignment; “Go into the city, and you will be told what to do.” Saul needed to go and wait for instruction, and someone had to lead him because he could not see. (This was very humbling) 

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Saul was knocked off his high horse of pride that day, and God humbled him. Saul could not see because of the blinding light. God gave him a visual-or not so visualpicture. Pride blinds us!  But, when we humble ourselves, we can be led into a safe place. 

 Humility, by the world’s definition, often implies diminished self-confidence. However, humility in the Bible means getting your confidence from God, who loves and values you more than you do yourself; it means believing what God says about you over anyone else’s opinion, including your own! 

 Humility requires embracing who you are in Christ over who you are in the flesh. To be biblically humble is to be so free of concern for your own ego that you unreservedly elevate those around you. 

                                      (Gentle Christian Parenting/Parenting in Christ-Dronen, Jackson)

 To lead with humility, we first need to know how God values us and get our confidence from Him.

 Leading with humility is a mark of maturity; pride, on the other hand, is like a demanding two-year-old. It (pride) is immature. It throws tantrums, wants its own way, and moves in comparison-“Johnny has more toys than me!”. Pride bullies people, especially if those people don’t think or do what pride wants. Pride is so ridiculously jealous. It manipulates, controls, blinds, and hinders peace. Yes, pride is sooo immature!

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 But humility LOVES! It is the prized crown to lay at the feet of Jesus. It moves with all the lusciousness of the Fruit of the Spirit. It encourages “one-anothering.” It sees the gold in each person and calls it out in them. Humility is the poster child of The Cross of Jesus. 

 Humility is the essential ingredient for being a leader. You must be a servant before you can become a good leader. Jesus was the ultimate example of that.

 God, Himself had to humble Saul so He could position him as Paul.

The takeaway:

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  It is better for us to fall on the Rock than for the Rock to fall on us!

Just ask Paul!

Blessings!

Joy Pharo

 Sanctioned Love