I Scream Yes!

Whenever I hear a sermon, read a devotion, or listen to a song that says:

“I want you (Rheyma) to know Me (Jesus), to live for Me from the inside out, 

“I SCREAM, YES, GOD!”

“I WANT THAT!”

But what do I do with it? Anything?  Many times, not a whole lot, I’m sorry to say. I can read my devotional, a few verses in Your Word, and pray a few short prayers-usually requests. Many of those requests go something like: “Here I am Lord, use me,” or “Lead me Holy Spirit,” or “Help me to see others the way You see them. Amen”. But……….do I really spend time withYou? Just take a walk and talk with You? Maybe even stop and take time to listen? I’d say that’s pretty much a “not real well.” There seems to be sooo much to do, on all fronts, even on the relaxing fronts. Have you ever “tried” to relax? It’s exhausting!

I do try Jesus. I try to do the “right things.” I try to be honest and open with You.   I try to listen to You. I even try to be fertile soil for You. I try, and I try, and I try. Am I trying too hard? I am sure I get too entangled in trying. I think trying tends to be my default. As a believer, I have a responsibility to “work out my salvation,” to grow closer, and go deeper in my relationship with You, Jesus. That’s what you do in relationships, right? Well, at least the ones that are important to you, the ones you want to keep.

Jesus, I want and need You to teach me how to walk out my relationship with you. Not try to walk it out. I already know how to do that. It doesn’t work well…just sayin’…                                        

I think the biggest part of a relationship with You is just being with You, not trying to “do” for You, which is a great statement. But that is all it is unless I put my feet where my mouth is and allow You, Jesus, to teach me as I spend time just being with You.  

I’m ready and willing, Jesus. Let’s go for a walk.

Rheyma Oosterman